I MISS YOU ALOT

Wow its been exactly 2 mths I haven't been posting - most probably this 2 mths its just daily routine life and nothing particular things happen and at the same time busy with work...

' I MISS YOU ' Just a few words won't take much effort to tell another person and yet there's alot of people out there won't tell to other person in their life - be it the lover or just any of the family... :)

Today is special and must make it a rememberance - to remind myself that whenever I miss whoever must let them know on the spot - Charlotte told me today that her special date (who they have been dating for a few months by now) actually for the first time telling her that particular magic word 'I MISS YOU ALOT' - sound simple but it really make her happy - she's been smiling and in a happy mood all the time today no matter what happen

Quality of time not quantity of time

Just wanna make today as a rememberance to a friend who has see through alot of things with me since last year till now... I haven't known this friend for a long time but isn't it QUALITY OF TIME THAT COUNTS MORE THAN QUANTITY OF TIME??? Just to make this date a special one to both of us... I can't forget this good friend brought laughter to my life when I'm most upset and make me overcome alot of problems and also someone who always love this song - WHAT CAN I DO TO MAKE YOU LOVE ME

Lost and Found

Lost in the middle of your own mind crisis, never knowing where to go and what to do... Feeling as though lost the ability to continue with the journey of life - Your world only consist of black and white colours no rainbow or any season that passes by... Daily routine and as though you can predict what is going to happen the next second of each passing minutes... Don't know what its the purpose of continue living and almost given up on all kinds of dreams, ambitions and feeling hopeless??? helpless??? Don't even feel like hanging out with all your best friends or even loved ones and family... TOTALLY LOST!!!!
I'm not giving any judgement regarding this matter here but I'm sure most of us definitely have undergoing one of those kind of situations stated above here in the first paragraph... maybe some of us been through the whole scenario or maybe just a small part of it or maybe been there but not as describe as serious as above - JUST LOST BUT NOT TO THE EXTENT TO GIVE UP YET - I've once been there or maybe I think now I'm lost :) LOST WITHIN MYSELF :)
I don't know when I started to have this kind of feelings - don't know what I want in the future and to be more precisely I dare not to even think what I want in my future - At times I do think is it because of the daily routine that now if there's a slight changes I'm not ready to move on??? Sometimes the thinking is just 'Arrr.... whatever it is just let it be' But now I finally got the answer to all my doubts but another problems following this answer is that what should I do to change the daily routine.
I FOUND the answer to my LOST... So this is my title for today's post "LOST AND FOUND" So how lucky am I to FOUND WHAT I'VE LOST :) haha so now you are wondering how am I suppose to found back what I've lost??? Thanks to Charlotte and Shawn - they make me realised why I've lost my life ( haha sound as though I don't have a life - what I mean here its actually my life without a life ) and now I found back my life

What friends are for???

How often will we ask ourself what can we do for our friends??? Sometimes I realised is it that what I've been doing all the while for my friends its just not enough??? Or is it that most of the time most people will only think about what their friends can do for them???

I think I'm a lucky person here when it comes to friends... My anonymous friend once asked me why am I so inactive with sports... Ok Ok... I'm the kind of person who doesn't like to play sports at all except snooker... and all the while I thought that maybe it just in my blood that I don't like sports until he told me that there must be a reason to it and make me think hard about this matter... and so here am I now at this moment really have to thank him hard as he make me realised why I don't like sports but hahahahahaha yea more laugh I'm not going to share this little fear of mine here with the world... This is something what my good anonymous friend did for me --> thank you thank you and thank you again...

I think I can be consider smart overall until the other day when I'm having a conversation with Kenneth - that this world is not the type I always think it is - to be more precise its more like I think the world to be like what I think it is - Not what it really is \:) So here I am now - a little wiser in a way - I should see the world for what it is not see the world like what I think it should be from my own perspective of point.

Getting to know all my friends is something fortunate for me... without them I'll never be who am I at this moment...

LOVE BUT NOT FALLING IN LOVE???

To define what exactly is love is very different from each different individual - Everybody has their own perspect of point especially in such sensitive issues her :)

Loving each other but not falling in love towards the other person - Then if in this kind of situation, is it a genuine kind of love or is it that they are taking too many things into CONSIDERATION???? Why do they have to think so much??? Or take too many things to consider about??? Why do human beings will consider and what kind of decision will they make when they go ahead approaching their dreams THAT NEED TO THINK MORE THAN TWICE BEFORE GOING AHEAD and now... do they ever ask back to themselves - WHEN IS THE LAST TIME YOU EVER DO SOMETHING PURELY MERELY JUST OUT OF GUTS?

Isn't it if we think too much, hesitate too much, consider too much on every kind of aspects about things in our life then IN THE END - gosh!!! The chances pass us by??? The more time it takes for us to consider the more we'll hesitate and in the end of the process we might just not taking anything ahead - Anyway whatever it is LIFE GOES ON but on the other hand... (yea yea yea don't need to remind me all the time k... I know I only have 2 hands) We'll never know if there's any life tomorrow... SO... let's don't just sit there and think or hesitate... Do whatever that you want and just go ahead with what will make you happy and live with no regrets even when you are six feet underground... CHEERS EVERYONE...

Back to my post title - LOVE BUT NOT FALLING IN LOVE??? Why do I have such a title here???

Charlotte loves Shawn and it goes the same way around but both of them are not falling in love with each other because they know they'll never have a future together - the situation won't allow or things won't turn out like what they hope to be - at times I'm just wondering when you know you love him and like to spend time with him, will do anything to overcome his obstacles and will only look at his priority first compare to your own - JUST BECAUSE OF SOME OTHER OBSTACLES you are holding back the feelings of not falling in love with him...

A week ago... :)

Exactly a week ago was my birthday... still the same young me sitting here even though another year of birthday approaches into my life and by the way birthday is just another some sort of occasion to remind us of the numbers of age in our life... Don't get me wrong here, I'm not so bothered about what is my age this year as deep down in my heart I feel young and that's the most important thing to me :)

Looking back to last week 7 days from now, I'm at work and what???!!! Oh, what I get on my birthday??? :) a bouquet of roses from an anonymous friend... Why anonymous huh??? Its because I receive it from the florist but the card attached to it bears no name... Too bad isn't it?? Hey hey on the other hand (ok ok don't need to remind me I only have 2 hands) maybe from a secret admirer??? Bingo!!!

To be frank this year 2006 I had a great birthday I ever had in these few years, truly enjoy myself in the company of all my colleagues as 2 of them comes to JB from KL... so its more like maybe the next year I won't be able to spend my birthday with them again and another thing is we'll never know what awaits for us in the future...

I'M REALLY HAPPY ON THE 23/05/2006

Even though this whole month of May is the most hectic month in my life (I really think so) its really amazing how I can still be enjoying this particular birthday of mine and it seems as though the most memorable for me to remember for the coming few years in the future

Other's of my FiRsT N LaSt...

Today is the same old hectic days... Yea by now till the June not even a day is not a hectic one with my job. While I'm driving on my way back home... I was thinking about my yesterday post 'FIRST N LAST'... Yesterday I'm trying to rationalise the thought that visit my mind the first and last thing of my day and suddenly I realised other than this... There's also other things that I've been doing is the same 'FIRST N LAST' so here am I now sitting in front of my PC trying to think about things that some people will do the same thing - first thing in the morning and the last thing before going to sleep... EXAMPLE : MAKING PHONE CALL TO THE SAME NUMBER (Yea yea yea... only lovers will do that), BRUSHING TEETH (Who won't??? but what I mean here is those people that do the same thing first n last thing in their routine)

I think I'm really obsessed now with this 'FIRST N LAST' of my life...

First N Last???

What is the first thing that is on your mind when you wake up in the morning??? Have you ever wonder or really take notice of what is on your mind??? And on the other hand ( OK OK all of us just have 2 hands right right I do remember... ) What is the last thing on your mind when you go for sleep??? And if coincidently THE FIRST THING 'N' THE LAST THING that is on your mind is the same set of thoughts... hmm hmm what does that mean???

Recently I really take notice of myself very much... Concentrating about the things that happened around me... And to be frank I realised that for the last 2 weeks the same thought going on and on in my mind... repeatedly playing the same thought... So I'm wondering here does this mean that this thought is very important to me... Oh! Gosh! My life is really hectic recently and here again I landed myself into giving myself more mystery to solve just for the sake of fulfilling the inner self of mine for finding the answer to the question I asked myself...

Is it important to find the answer to every doubt I have about life??? Sometimes it doesn't seem important and I don't really give it a damn but at times I have the urgency just wanted to know everything. Have the kind of feelings like if I know all the answers to my doubts life will be better...

Oh I think now I'm running from my little thought of FIRST THING 'N ' THE LAST THING hahaha now after I really put my thoughts into this matter... Finally I know why is this special little thoughts is all the time be the FIRST AND THE LAST THING ON MY MIND... Why? Why? Why? Oh well because right now that is the most important thing in my life... or to be more precise... its not a thing but its a human... meaning another person in this world that is important to me that is the reason why its the FIRST AND THE LAST THING ON MY MIND

Recently taken photos...

My first PAINTBALL game

Love anyone???

What can I do to help a friend that is in need... I really have no idea now especially now the issue involving one of those that I myself am trying to know... Anyway I can't do anything much regarding this matter as she is the only one who knows exactly what she wants in her life... So with all these famous quotations of love that I found in hope to cheer her up and if better still let her find her new resolution :)

"Love is the triumph of imagination over intelligence."- H. L. Mencken

"There is no remedy for love but to love more."- Henry David Thoreau

"Passion makes the world go round. Love just makes it a safer place."- Ice T

"Friendship is certainly the finest balm for the pangs of disappointed love."- Jane Austen

"To love deeply in one direction makes us more loving in all others."- Anne-Sophie Swetchine

"I believe love is primarily a choice and only sometimes a feeling. If you want to feel love, choose to love and be patient."- Anonymous

"To fear love is to fear life, and those who fear life are already three parts dead."- Bertrand Russell

"Love is not enough. It must be the foundation, the cornerstone - but not the complete structure. It is much too pliable, too yielding."- Bette Davis

"The meeting of two personalities is like the contact of two chemical substances: if there is any reaction, both are transformed."- Carl Jung

"To love and be loved is to feel the sun from both sides."- David Viscott

"The enthusiasm of a woman's love is even beyond the biographer's."- Jane Austen

"Love is, above all, the gift of oneself."- Jean Anouilh

"Age does not protect you from love. But love, to some extent, protects you from age."- Jeanne Moreau

"Honesty is the only way with anyone, when you'll be so close as to be living inside each other's skins."- Lois McMaster Bujold

"When you give each other everything, it becomes an even trade. Each wins all."- Lois McMaster Bujold

Learning to love yourself is the greatest love of all.- Michael Masser and Linda Creed

"Fall not in love, therefore; it will stick to your face."- National Lampoon

"Love is not blind - it sees more, not less. But because it sees more, it is willing to see less."- Rabbi Julius Gordon

"Love is an irresistable desire to be irresistably desired."- Robert Frost

"Love is or it ain't. Thin love ain't love at all."- Toni Morrison

"Life's greatest happiness is to be convinced we are loved."- Victor Hugo

"There's always one who loves and one who lets himself be loved."- W. Somerset Maugham

"But love is blind, and lovers cannot see The pretty follies that themselves commit."- William Shakespeare

"Love all, trust a few. Do wrong to none."- William Shakespeare

Quote by Benjamin Franklin

Early to bed and early to rise, makes a man healthy, wealthy, and wise.

To find out a girl's faults, praise her to her girl friends.

Beer is proof that God loves us and wants us to be happy.

There are three faithful friends, an old wife, an old dog, and ready money.

Experience is a dear teacher, and only fools will learn from no other.

Wise men don't need advice. Fools won't take it.

Life's tragedy is that we get old too soon and wise too late.

Guests, like fish, begin to smell after three days.

God heals and the doctor takes the fee.

Keep your eyes wide open before marriage, and half-shut afterwards.

Obsessed...

I'm obsessed with manicure and pedicure at this moment... Don't know what is the reason I'm so into but I need to go for it now almost every week once...

Nothing much on my mind???

Recently it seems there's nothing much on my mind or nothing much going on in life... everyday is just routine -> busy with work, not going out much, and broke my handphone and its just repeating the whole routine daily...
So I'm wondering here by myself... why there isn't much thoughts in my mind at this moment??? Due to the busy schedule or maybe my life starts to get bored??? hahaha... anyway no matter what is going on I think I should get more sparks into my life or else its definitely going to be blank these few months.
Other than these I have a few things mark out in plans and hope everything will work out as the plan and then maybe I will have more time sitting down peacefully at thoughts and start pumping in more post here... :)

Venny's Wedding Dinner

Venny's wedding dinner on the 07/01/2006 but I was rather slow posting the photos to the blog because of my busy schedule...

Suzane ( Venny's best friend, as well as my best friend too ) giving her testimonial about Venny and her friendship at the dinner

Me together with Loretta

This photo was taken a few weeks ago, but its just that recently I have been quite busy so before this I don't have the time to post this photo to my blog... If you remember the earlier shots that I have posted here, she's my little precious TANG YING