"To fear love is to fear life, and those who fear life are already three parts dead."- Bertrand Russell

Screening through my old post come across this quote where once I searched for Jasmine, though its a few years back yet reading back old post now sort of keep me inspired and motivated to get my blog back to track.

FEAR... There's just too many things human beings fear in their life. This quote FEAR OF LOVE... if its so true where those of us who fear of love is three parts dead then there is nothing worse in life. If the love journey, everything is in place and not being hurt everyone will be happily in love yet life is never perfect. I believe each and everyone of us get hurt before yet we still continue our journey in life believing in love, searching for love and bet all our faith in love.

Some are fortunate enough to finally found someone to be together living happily ever after. Yet some are less fortunate - getting hurt once and once again... So for those less fortunate is it wrong for them to go and hide and shield themselves from love - fear of love, never ever wanna get hurt is WRONG????

One who work so hard building his/her own shelter ( shelter from love dear ^_^ ) refuse to ever believe and trust love. Then one lucky day LOVE knocks on the door, bits by bits tearing down the shelter bring sunshine into life once more... falling head over heels kind of love. This time round truly believes in love once again, despite any obstacles stand in the way have faith that love will work it miracles help them get through the rough time ( anyway when in love nothing will get in their way )... have all faith and trust with LOVE. Everyone can even feel their LOVE.

Then once again LOVE betrayed him/her... Leaving her alone and the reason is LOVE can't have enough confidence that he/she will stand by LOVE... If after so many times been hurt by LOVE and worse betrayed, is it wrong for us unfortunate ones to fear love is wrong???

Without love life still goes on... We can still eat, sleep, work and have funs then LOVE COMES AND RUIN EVERYTHING LATER JUST DISAPPEAR FROM OUR LIFE... YET AGAIN THE UNFORTUNATE US IS BEING CATOGARIZED AS ---- THREE PARTS DEAD???

Is it fair for us??? Or what makes you think we can still believe in love??? Or maybe we do put a little hope for us out there, a quote by me myself to every unfortunate ones out there....

HAVE FAITH IN FATE.... Believe in God all these misfortunate is challenges in our life in order to make us stronger.... in order for us to know what we want in our life as we never ever will let LOVE MAKES US BLIND :) .... Believe god loves us all and save the best for last as ITS FATED TO BE

My special Anniversary

Karmen was back in town yesterday nite so we went for a drink and had some gals nite out but its just the both of us... Sort of like planning for our nx year anniversary - known each other for 22 yrs so maybe we'll try to get a few others to gather around but it might take some time as Aileen is away now in UK and maybe by then everyone is away...

We are trying to work out a short trip maybe 4 days away just to spend time together as how many 22nd yrs of anniversary we can get in our lifetime :) At times I do wonder what have we all been doing all these years but I'm so happy that till now we still have each other at times when life is tough.

Another wish upon the stars now is hopefully after this 22nd year anniversary in the nx coming 44 yrs anniversary all of us still together having a drink as well... I know everyone one of us will try our best to make tis works.... LOVE YOU DEAR.

Steamboat

This is all the igredients that I prepared all by myself for a steamboat session with family :) Guess by all these photos that I keep on posting you can get some thoughts that I'm really hungry...

I really wanna keep to my resolution about eating oats only but its getting much more difficult with each passing days but I do managed to shed off a little weight here though not much but there is some obvious changes :) Maybe I'll keep to this diet but I'm gonna get myself proper lunch so other meals is stick to oats.

This is a traditional Chinese food - chang - its glutinous rice and meats and some other igredients ( dependable on wat u like ) wrapped by bamboo leaves....

Its done by me few months ago... mmm mmm saddening here cos no one believes its cooked by me till mom telling everyone I'm the one who did it.. haha how it tasted??? Superbly delicious cos its mom recipe ^_^

I'm clearing photos in my cam so uploading those photos which should be posted earlier on - but as you know these 2 mths I've been busy facebooking LOL...

Deleting older post

I felt as though I've uploaded too many photos this year so I'm deleting most of it as I tried only to concentrate back to my writing only - so less photo now :)

errrr hungry

Why I have to make some stupid resolution which now I doubt I can keep to it... Other than 1 or 2 issues that is keeping me awake till now is I'm damn hungry I can't sleep. Shall I just skip my strict diet and get something to eat??? Despite I ate some oats 2 hours ago my hunger seems not fading..

So now back to my own favorite quotes... Have faith in fate so I'm fated to be chubby but I have stronger faith that I'm gonna shed off all these extra pounds I gained this whole year before the next new year welcomes me :)

Guess I'm forever lack of will power to stick to my own dreams even if its just a small little resolution. I'm sleepy like hell and yet can't empty my mind for some sleeps so what can I do now... Hmm maybe I should get back to my facebook games ( just about yesterday I swear to myself to cut down on facebook ) ... KKKKKKKK dear dear me earth is moving on time is passing by despite I'm feeling miserable here and if I keep on awake tomorrow its gonna be a hard day at work - alot of reports I have to submit tomorrow. Nitey nite

Year End Resolution

It seems most of the time the new year resolution I set for myself rarely accomplished mmmm :) kk dear I agree I'm lack off willingness to abide by rules hey shan't us act out of wits seems more challenging???? Anyway enough of new year resolution since is just another 1 month +, this time round I'm gonna stick to my YEAR END RESOLUTION....LOL

Since I'm forever not on schedule and desperately wanna shed off some weights thinking hard here... my YEAR END RESOLUTION is stick to strict diet - I'm just gonna eat oats only till next year :)

Own DIY manicure

I've been slacking these 2 months cause I'm addicted orrrr obsessed with Facebook games :) yea I know there are other better things to do but if you've never been there you'll never understand what I'm undergoing now...

I've been thinking to post to share about my new interest which is my very own DIY manicure - a little proud on my new learnt skills LOL .. Aware its not that professionally done yet I'm just proud proud proud ^_^

Heaps and many more heaps of thanks to fellow blogger jocelyn :) cos of her new manicure which motivate me to post my little own creation.

My dream LITTLE nude Dress in exchange for all my LBD

I have been searching for this photo online for a few months and finally today found it on MSN... Why all this hassle huh? Well particularly becos of SJP 'little nude dress' - well everyone tends to only will try to fill their wardrobes with all sorts of LBD ( little black dress - this goes the same for me ) but now I'm desperately looking for a nude dress the exact like SJP's though I don't require the precise one but just love this shade too much ^-^ ... Each time if I browse the webs looking for her photos I just missed 'SEX AND THE CITY' so much now just waitng for the SATC movie 2 - I just missed Carrie and Samantha heaps :)

OLD PHOTOS

Alot of photos now was being touched up and edit using the photoshop yet at times I do preferred to do everything the old fashion way which is like cutting papers but its difficult to find the time to do so nowadays. Maybe looking at some old photos might keep me motivated :)

Moving on to September 2009

Oh gosh!!! Its really a tiring week though Monday was a public Holiday ( Malaysia independence day - MERDEKA ) yet this seems like a long week. Hmm last few days as I lost my car keys so its all a hassle I've got to go thru without my car for 2 days. I'm happy tomorrow is Friday so I can finally take a rest as this round I'm physically worn out.

Thought Doris might wanna meet up for lunch this Saturday but she is really busy with work and moving to new place so maybe I'll have dinner with her then.

4 NAUGHTIE SWEETIE :) - batu feringgi penang

As I've mentioned earlier the trip to Penang all the photos was with my fellows colleague so its more like waiting for them to email to me or whenever to uploaded it at Facebook so today its here another one with AMILNA MILMEL, ELLE, SAARAANI ... Our fellowship of sisterhood ya :)

Uthaya

As I was checking my facebook account, hmmm UTHAYA just uploaded one of our photos ( which I dun have :) )

MY FAV EMO HAIRSTYLES

All the photos here is those of my favorites emo hairstyles except for the one with the flower ... though its not my fav but it does deserve for some credits to go tis far :)

COSPLAY .....

All the while I just consider to cosplay NARUTO or GAARA only but looking at this SAKURA - being SAKURA its quite a good idea only that till now I'm still not very into SAKURA other than her pink color hair.

First Week of August 2009 - HUMAN'S SELFISHNESS

Hmm... Time passes by sort of quickly, nothing much has been done and yet its left only another 4 months to bid goodbye to 2009... The 1st week of August nothing much other than is Carmen's birthday 07/08/09.

This week I was quite upset, once Daniel asked ' is all human beings selfish ' and I told him ' YES ' which quite disappoints him but after today this statements makes me more confident my answer is very true... as all the time everyone puts their own priority first and when others not complying or can't be in the same shoes they just said ' you never understand me '.

What's my answer??? ' Sorry I don't understand you, yet I don't need a friend who doesn't understand me as well ' .. Do I sound too harsh? I know Daniel is going thru all kinds of obstacles now in every aspect of life. I've tried my best to just be a listening ear and give my helping hand as best I can pull through but if all the time he can only see for himself and never once did consider my situation.... What friends are for?

I've landed myself into a few problems trying to help him and in return its some comments like I don't understand him and he feels sad about it. For me its the last straw - I'm hurt and disappointed with this friend. One good thing now is that I can be more assure my choice of not butting into other people's affair is very true.... So it might be the end of me helping out...

Faith Faith Faith

Please god... let me have enough faith to go through all the obstacles I'm undergoing now. I know its unfair to pray to god to make me strong enough to overcome the problems I've created by myself but at times where one is not sure to keep moving forward or make turns or just turn back, asking for more strength to keep forward thru the journey is the best solutions.

Only my own personal thoughts no offends mean here and please no hard feelings pleeeeeeasseeee .... Just assume god is watching and caring for every living creatures on earth, by chance everyone is praying in hope god will lend a helping hand, will god help everyone of us despite who we are. By then god must be superbly busy... LOL.

Enough of my thoughts today as this is a sensitive and just a little out of the mind. Maybe the lost of directions in my life now till losing my own touch.

A HELPING HAND

To what extent would you lend a helping hand to a needy friend??? There is just numerous times where I've set my principles of not borrowing money to friends as I believe finding a solutions is the better way of helping, worse money is a sensitive issues as now because of the economy crisis everyone is tend to be more selfish... Keeping the money to myself is better than lending it to friends.

I dunno why I'll help my friend and this is the second time. I have enough problems on my plate and really don't have so much of energy to butt into others problems. This shall be last time time I'm helping out :)

Hope tomorrow will be more sunnier and everything is back to places.... You have my best wishes :)

Believing in yourself as god has set up your path to work this way.... Challenging yourself to better you.

FOOT MASSAGE...

Whoa Whoa ... I just gotten home and was excited wanna share my first hand experience to one of those FOOT MASSAGE PARLOUR... Oomphhhh.... its superb :) Dear dear KKKKK I know those foot massage its very common but all these times I dare not to even try it as every friends been saying its a painful experience.

As after lunch with Bernard he suggested I follow him to this particular parlour in Oakland S2 ( where he assures me its all done by professionals from China ).

First they soaked both my foot in warm water with chinese herbs ( some mild herbal smell not those extreme strong ), while soaking they start to massage my shoulder, neck and part of head ( hmmmm destressing ), approximately 15 mins later they proceed to massage my foot :)

Some parts the pain was almost unbearable ( as they explain its due to symptoms of some health problems in those particular points - so need to pay attention to those problems ) .. and some its very pleasuring ... more like destressing :)

EVERYONE SHOULD GIVE IT A TRY.. ITS NOT SO SCARY AFTER ALL :)

THOSE OLD DAYS....

I was searching high and low for my passport :( million thanks to my bro HOU HOU... every veins in my body is pounding with anger ( how I wish I can just killed him ) as I was looking everywhere for my passport ( the worst of all is he is not sure whether its misplaced or was stolen by some other people as he had someone over the other day to install our broadband modem ).

OMG OMG ... Deeply hope god does put out his helping hand ... its been a few weeks now I've been searching all over to no avail.... So today was more like I found a few of old photos taken 9 years ago during the millenium year.. This photo was taken at Singapore Kranji MRT ( Yup yup on my way to the turf club - as you can see the horses sign board behind me :) ) THOSE WERE THE DAYS and also reminding me I still have to make time out to look for my lost passport... doomed doomed doommeeeddd!!!! aarrghhhghhhh heaps of frust!!!!!

Drained Out

I'm totally drained out today maybe its I don't have enough sleeps is the major reason but today was sort of hectic not only at work... Normally I'll just have lunch with my colleagues but today since my friend SEONG is in town we lunched and dinnered together as well.

Hey ya spending time with friends is essential to maintain our friendship. Some funny thing was a few years ago everyday I'll try to put in efforts to at least meeting one friend everyday but now I realised there is some changes in my life. At times like today I just wanna have a queit night alone by myself ( though its never gonna happen :) the moment I step at home my mom starts to talk non-stop endlessly to me ) At times I do feel bad cos most of the time when mom starts to talk I never listen but will keep watching the tv or indulge in my own thoughts.. Anyway she just needs to talk not a listener... She can just go on and on repeating the same issues and the best part of it is MY MOM NEVER REALISED.

Though I do missed clubbing sometimes but now I preferred to have a good coffee time with a few good friends where sharing thoughts or a good lunch or superb SUNDAY BRUNCH I don't mind.

Tonight I was supposed to have tea with Bernard but might be both of us are drained out as well as yesterday night we had tea till almost 12pm... Its a good thing now I'm sitting in front of the computer posting. So far for today another tiresome Tuesday :)

By the way before I forgot... HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU MY DEAR DEAR COUSIN RUBY... ANOTHER YEAR WISER HOPEFULLY LOVE YA

Why do we need love?

As I was browsing thru my emails out of one of my daily horoscopes articles 'WHY DO WE NEED LOVE' ... All the time I was more like wanna understand what is love maybe this article opens up another point of view on how should I view love.

So its advise is more like LOVE makes us happy, contented and all good things. Sort of like with love comes with the package of all good things.

Well what do you think huh???!!! Well it might be true with one condition which is if your love is being returned ( okie okie love needs sacrifices but here its another issue dudes ) .. If your love is being turned down will you still be feeling contented, happy, satisfied, self esteem boost???

Overall love this simple word covers too generally in every aspects of our life... there are just too many times where I wanna to know what's love, the more I explore the more vague it seems.

Hi Hi ... I've added a few links to my blog ... two of it is my other blogs and another New Age Hairstyles is a blog I just came across where is a real cool blog which I believed I'll continue reading it and hope some of you might like it as much as I do :)

Relieved...

Earlier on I was trying out a new gadget - upload my own photo as background ... Hmm it does sounds cool so I just did as per instructed but turns out to be its totally wrecked as it doesn't blend out ... More like all my post can't be read as all the colors just out of place...

So I've made another blog in order to save all my old post ( only those which I like alot & able to copy ) and I've searched online to see what I can do about retrieving my old templates.. Finally finally today I've done it :) Well its very simple - just by deleting the post where I uploaded on the day but I've lost my site meter, tagboard and all other links...

So one good things won't come along with better things. Maybe I just have to work harder to keep my blog the way I want it and new things not necessary will be better :) Will bear in my mind now :) This is really a big lesson

Guidelines To Find Mr Right ????

I remember many years back i read an article in a magazine titled " Guidelines To Find Mr Right" ,, put it in a simple way or from what I can remember most of it is :- take a piece of paper and list out all the requirements you want from the other half ( ok ok u can also just list it out elsewhere not just limit to a piece of paper :-> ) FOR INSTANCE : HEIGHT, LOOKS, EDUCATION LEVEL N MANY OTHERS LIKE SOUL SEARCHING REQUIREMENTS U TAKE AS IMPORTANT... From here on those u come across and might be considering, if he's not up to half from those listed out you can move on to the next one as he will not be your compatible one or more or less what is being called as Mr Wrong.

Sound simple isn't it and to those who can play by these rules might be able to save many broken hearts, tears and most crucial your time... Hope it works for everyone out there :)

As for me I don't ever think it will work, part of sharing k :) Short while after I broke off wt my boyfriend of 3 years, I read this article. I follow exactly the guidelines then I start a new relationship base on the requirements. Luck on my side he is exactly what all the time I wanted but our relationship doesn't last. Well, both of us are just too similar to each other. Maybe because of this we ended up as best friends.

My own little thoughts so no judgements here k :) I think this method will work if you are looking for a compatible Mr Right. But if you are still in hope to find those special kind of love I don't think it will works.. You can't find love and its always the other way round - love will find you if its meant to be. So everyone out there, just be sure of what are you looking for then you'll see whether this simple guidelines may help you out in some ways :) GOOD LUCK :)